Not just those close to me but also from an observing stand point.
I thought there were a good number of people who believed in me and truly knew what my thought process was. I was wrong. I don't blame these people for thinking what they think they have their reasons but dang... I thought you knew me better.
Why do people pretend to be your friend?
... you know what I take that back, you don't pretend to be my friend, I guess I was the one pretending you were.
How is it SO hard to find good friends?
Don't get me wrong I have a few and I'm not complaining one bit.
But THIS is why I come off the way I do, meaner than I am, tougher...
because this crap, hurts me.
I constantly pride myself on being honest.
It takes too much of me to lie
too much of who I'm NOT
but I constantly get accused of lying....
I don't get it... I really don't.
maybe it's my fault
maybe I shouldn't act so tough
maybe that was it
OMGGG.....
I had to take a break from writing this just to be disappointed AGAIN?!?!
come on
I started to type "I give up"
but I won't
they gave up on me.
